Gosh, it's been a while since I've blogged. I finally have time to sit & write all my thoughts down. My brain has been on vacation I swear. I tried my hardest to focus on one thing at a time so I wouldn't out do myself. I've been known to over think myself to the point where I stress the heck out of myself. Call me weird but I can be the only person to actually admit that I can be annoying. That's horrible if you know you're annoying! hahahaha But that's because I can confuse myself for no apparent reason & know I have the answer. I just choose the decisions I make because I'm either lazy or it's the easier route. As my best friend describes me best "I'm a perfectionist & Procrastinator all at the same time". Who can you seriously say that about? I don't know if that's horrible or unique! How sad! lol
In any case, so much has gone on since the last time I blogged. W/ my father in law passing we ended up leaving our kids in California w/ their grandma to spend the rest of their summer. It helped us out so much though because w/ dad's funeral we were so behind on bills. We had to stop everything and fly out to Cali w/ lil' money we had. Than w/ the money we did get while out there had to go towards dads funeral etc. We got an eviction notice & I pleaded w/ my land lord to let me pay the full 2 months we were behind today. So glad she was understanding because I don't know what I would of done if my kids didn't have a place to come home to. It all worked out though.
So now my babies are coming home today w/ their aunties & grandma. I'm super excited. They're gonna drive down to Las Vegas & stay in a hotel & hang out & wait for us. How cute. My kids have had such a fun summer. It'll be even better being they get to end it in Vegas. :)
During the time we had w/o our children here in Utah my husband & I were able to hustle enough to get caught up w/ our rent & some of our bills. Haven't quite recovered from our fall out from the Cali trip & dads funeral but we're slowly getting there. I think everyone can relate anyhow being that every typical family lives paycheck to paycheck. I hate it. Especially when unexpected things happen & you don't have anything to help the situation. Ugh! With the busy mind I have you would think I would of already owned a shop w/ the things I've made or something. I threw that one out because that's what I want to do. lol The only thing I dread is that fact that I'm so picky I might kill myself over just picking the right wall color or something. hahaha I can never be satisfied I tell you. I am truly my own worst critic.
On another note, I've found a lot about myself this past year. If it wasn't for the help of my best friend Lepa ( I like to include her name because one day if someone reads this and doesn't know her she can become famous from my blog) hahahaha Not that I have friends that follow me that don't know her but yeah like I said she can become famous one day you never know! ROFL Eh, I'm running on about nothing. SO anyway she has really taught me about myself. I know that's hard to believe but I'm the type of person that has to be reminded of how some things are to be left alone. She knows me inside out and if I mention her too often it's because she is actually my only true best friend besides my sisters of course. Now that I have mentioned my sisters I find myself drifting off in thoughts of old memories together. Oh geez, I miss them. I better end on that note before I start crying. :*(
Soooooo besides me finding myself like an idiot would say years later! lol I've learned how to cope w/ the stressful times now. Because I know how I can be, I relax a lot more! I mean I was getting sick I think from stressing out all the time. But I'm a thinker so you can expect that.
Well enough of the mumbo jumbo. School is starting OMG. My babies are growing sooo fast. My eldest is going to 4th grade & just turned 9, my second eldest will be going to 2nd grade & will turn 8 in Sep, my daughter is going to 1st grade & turning 7 in Nov & my baby girl just turned 5 in Feb & is starting Kindergarten! Awwwwwww!!!! Lepa & I are thinking of throwing a lil' back to school party for our babies! They'll need a lil' party I think because the rest of the year is gonna be homework, studying & more homework! lol Shoo! BTW I just started working so I'm already exhausted thinking of how I'm gonna do it when my babies return home. I've done it before but I had help like my lil' cousin watching my babies for me while I work. I won't have that help any more so we have to work around each others schedule. Which means NO sleep! lol Kudos to working moms. :) I'm gonna do part time for now. My babies are young & I want to be present in their childhood as much as I can.
Well my mind is thinking of a whole lot of nothing so I think that means I'm tired or maybe I'm side tracked w/ all the future planning we have! lol Oh, I know what I'll do. I'm gonna go on my bff "LEPA" & my blog spot & post the stuff we made! It needs to be updated anyway! :) Til I blog later than! Toodles! lol
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